From Ice To Snow

Cars are in Ditches..
Semi's are Jackknifed..
Highways are Shut Down..
My Car is Iced Shut..
This Shit Sucks... (Its pretty but it sucks)

So every school is closed down today because of the ice on the roads. My house sits on a hill so since I have been up, I have watched a few brave souls trying to make it down the hill and around the corner and lets just say they are not doing so well. They have it a little easier than I do. My house is right where the street joins into another one so instead of being able to go down the hill, I have to back out of my drive and then go up the hill. The stop sign is right in front of my house. This is not going to be very much fun.

I was watching the weather guy last night say we had the potential for up to 12" of snow today due to another storm heading our direction. Now they have added to that total. We are on the line to possibly get up to 18" of the stuff! Holy Crap!!! Talk about getting slammed! I just knew this shit was gonna happen when we had thunder storms the other night and we had a high of 75 degrees day before yesterday.

Yep the ass kickin' has commenced! I am just praying for no bruises :)

Okay time to try and brave it all... Good thing I live so close to my work!!! Wish me luck everyone..

Winter Update....

Now we have been upgraded from a Winter Storm Watch to an Ice Storm Warning.... It looks like the fun is just starting to begin!!! So here is a copy of the warning itself...

An ice storm warning remains in effect until 6 am cst Thursday. A large area of freezing rain and thunderstorms will continue to overspread northwest missouri and eastern kansas this afternoon. Temperatures were already below freezing across the warning area, and will steadily fall through the 20s this afternoon. Freezing rain, heavy at times, will lead to significant ice accumulations through this afternoon into tonight. Rapid ice accumulations could accompany any thunderstorms, with total ice accumulations up to one inch possible. This is an extremely dangerous situation for much of the kansas city metropolitan area, where roadways were already becoming slick across northern and western portions of the city as of 230 pm cst, with spotter reports indicating up to one tenth of an inch of icing. Conditions will continue to deteriorate into the overnight hours, with ice accumulations possibly leading to snapped power lines and falling tree branches.

Winter Is Finally Coming

I love the fact that recently the temperatures around here have been so warm you haven't even needed a jacket. In fact, my son was in shorts the other day. Usually you wouldn't be dressing like that in late November. Today the high was in the 70's with a strong wind. It was just beautiful today!

Well its time for a change because we are now in a Winter Storm Watch. Its amazing how quickly a good thing can diminish!!! They are expecting snow and ice over the next 36 hours which really makes me cringe. As much as I love looking at the stuff, driving in it and shoveling it is a completely different story. Thank GOD for my SUV!!! It gets around so good so I am not worried about driving but that doesn't make it any better.

If this were happening on the weekend, I would be fine because then I would have no reason what-so-ever to leave my house and even venture out in the stuff. But considering I do have to go to work during the week while all of this is going on, I have no choice. ***sigh*** Oh how I would prefer to just stay locked indoors under the sheets watching good movies!!! You know I would occasionally venture out just to slide down the hill in front of my house because that is just too much fun, even if it means breaking my ankle again. But NOPE!!! Gotta work!

The only good thing about ice storms is how beautiful everything is but that's all. Everything sparkles when coated with a nice sheet of ice. Its like diamonds! Sometimes its so bright its blinding. But when you lose your power because the tree branches are too heavy to take the weight and it snaps your power lines, life becomes no fun at all. And we are due for a major ice storm this year considering its been quite awhile since we have had one. I have noticed they usually happen about every 3 years so its definitely time.


I found this a few years ago. Its called the Ice Storm Diet.


Breakfast:

Muffin (or the portion of the muffin) which hasn't yet begun to mold
Cereal with milk (slightly sour if kept inside,completely frozen if kept outside)
Any fruit that hasn't started to smell funny
Tea or coffee which takes half an hour to make on the woodstove but hey, it's sort of hot.
Toast burned in the woodstove, and marmalade (if you are courageous enough to ignore the warning: "keep refrigerated after opening...")


Lunch:

Any of the above listed for breakfast.
Sandwiches made from anything in a can (you might have to fight the cat for it)
Scrambled eggs (see time required for tea/coffee)
Bacon from the neighbour's freezer (test it on the cat first )
Forfar cheese. Not the cottage cheese though - that went the way of the milk.


Dinner:

Any of the above
Canned soup, canned meatballs, canned spaghetti. ...etc - just rip the label off, plop it on the woodstove and wait...and wait...and wait... stir once in a while...
Cooked meat from your outdoor freezer (aka the snow on the deck) wrap it in foil and stick it in the fire - really gets that "smoked" flavour
Canned veggies, canned fruit etc.
Salad made from those dubious veggies stored in the coldest room in the house
Spam!!! Be sure to sing the appropriate Monty Python tune.

So Winter.... It appears you have decided to make your appearance after all and it seems you are coming with a vengeance!!! Welcome anyway!!! But please be kind :)

Michael, are you sure you are ready for all of this???

Lightning Crashes

What a great morning! I woke up feeling so good today and I think part of it is the thunder and lightning. For the first time in quite a while we actually had some storms in the middle of the night. I awoke to a loud boom and then just lied there for awhile listening and watching the flashes out my window while lying in bed.

I love Storms.... I love Thunder.... But I really LOVE Lightning!

The World is Ending

Pam Anderson and Kid Rock have filed for divorce after only 4 months of marriage citing "irreconcilable differences".

Everyone pull out your lighters and holdem' high in tribute to this very very sad occasion!!! What a sad day in America! How in the hell am I supposed to sleep at night now???

Mind Games

Ahhhh!!! Just another day paradise!!! Okay so I am being a little sarcastic but it helps me feel a little bit better so whatever.

Why are there people in the world who prey on the weak? I know it makes them feel superior and gives them that sense of control and power but if it is something they would not want done to themselves then why would they do it to anyone else? Makes not one bit of sense to me and it never will. I guess because I am one of those people who loves to help and not hinder. I don't have issues with my self-esteem like someone who is a nothing more than a virus in my life. All I need to do is find the perfect vaccine and irradicate him but until then I just have to try and stay positive and take each day as it comes.

I admit, its hard but considering I am surrounded by many good people who really and truly care about me and my son, I know I can do this.

I guess I just needed to vent a bit. I am really very tired of dealing with so much crap lately. Honestly, I have spent the last 11 years of my life trying to decipher between bullshit and truth. And you know what? I don't do that anymore. I just automatically assume that its all lies because I have no reason to believe anything else. Right??? Yeah I pretty much thought so....

I guess I am just having a really hard time understanding how someone could lie to me about every single thing they ever did. I kept asking myself why me? What did I do? But when I started thinking more and more about it, I came to the realization that this person is truly sick in the mind and will always be that way until they decide to face reality and get some help. I refuse to hold my breath because the minute I do, I will die. And I cannot let that happen because I have so many positive things in my life. My son, Michael, my family and my friends. They are all worth so much to me and I will never allow anyone come between that ever again. I am happy so why sacrifice that happiness????

A Good Day...

Yesterday my son and I went to see his grandparents and we had a great time! We had not seen them in quite awhile so our visit was well overdue and much needed.

There was a ton of catching up we had to do so there were lots of tears shed. But we also laughed quite a bit.

My son needed this. With everything going on in our lives lately he has been filled with so much anger and confusion so being out in the country for a day gave him a good outlet to just be a kid and not have to worry about anything going on around him.

His grandparents have a huge 30 acre farm so there was plenty of places just to roam about. We rode horses, jumped on the trampoline and rode 4runners. It was just fun!!!

Not only was it theraputic for my son, but it was so good for me as well. I was able to share my feelings on what is going on with me and I needed that more than anything.

So here are a few pictures of our day in the country....

Sand, Sea Shells and Memories

I have really missed doing the blogs. I had a great one not so long ago but personal problems I was having in my life sent me spiraling out of control and I deleted it. It was something I regretted not long after because it was my outlet. It was my personal journal. It was my life.

But no more. I am back and I am happy! No matter what I am going through in my life I know without a doubt my life is good. I have a terrific family, my incredible son and a wonderful friend in NV. But there is one more in my life who has meant so much and that is Michael, my best friend, my strength, my one and only, my forever and always......Simply, the love of my life.

While I was at my lowest in the last couple of weeks, everyone mentioned above did everything they could to help me get my strength back and become even stronger than I ever thought possible and for that I say 'Thank You'!!! Everything all of you have done for me means the world and I will never forget it...... I promise you that.

Recently, I have had to really look at myself and decide what was most important to me. Anyone who has done that knows how truly hard it is to sit back and examine yourself underneath a microscope, not leaving anything unturned. These last few weeks were in fact the hardest 2 weeks of my entire life but now that its all over I am moving forward and will never look back again.

Unfortunately, I shut everyone who meant something to me out of my life during this time and that is what saddens me most of all. I listened to no one except someone who did nothing but lie and manipulate me in the worst of ways. And to think I allowed it to happen.

During those couple of weeks I received a package in the mail that made it all so clear. When I pulled the package out of my mailbox I immediately ran into my bedroom where I could be alone and opened it. Tucked inside were the following items: A letter, A very unique Zippo lighter and a quaint little box. I opened up the little box and gazed upon the smoothest sand I have ever seen and some sea shells.



Michael, thank you for sending me these and reminding my darkened mind of what is truly important in my life. I love you so much.... You saved me from myself when I needed it most and for that I will always be thankful. Always know it was never you that I doubted, only myself. Getting this package sent my mind back to when you were here with me. Every second we were together flashed before my eyes in a matter of seconds..... It made me feel safe, warm, comfortable and most of all loved! Now as you have said to me so many times lately, 'Let's get this party started!' cuz I am more than ready....

So rest assured everyone, I am back and I am happy... Life is good!